Four years ago I entered my first CrossFit Games Open Competition. This is what I wrote about that first day of self-torture…
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- 150 wall balls with a 14lb ball to 9 feet,
- 90 double unders (jumping rope with the rope passing under twice for each jump)
- 30 muscle ups on the rings.
The 14 pound ball was heavier than the 10 pound I was used to. I couldn’t get my rhythm on the double-unders and I have never successfully performed a muscle up.
But the really hard part was what was going on in my mind. You see, I had just moved back to Dallas a newly divorced mother of 3 kids and had bee
At several points in the workout I found myself wondering, “Why?”. Why am I putting myself through this? Why does it matter if I push? Could I ever do anything with any of this? Am I too old for this?
At the beginning of a workout I am always dreading what is to come. I look at it with apathy, apprehension and misery. As I start to warm up I feel the dread begin to slip away as I plan my strategy for attacking it full on.
And although I didn’t get a score that will take me to compete in the CrossFit games (I was number 2060 in my age group out of about 14,000 women my age who competed), I got through the obstacle… just like I will get through all of these other obstacles in life. I will find the fight within me to be the best I can be. I will persevere. I will succeed. And I will do it with passion and grace!
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This year we have twenty-one people at our gym enrolled in the Open. I have coached people through this several times, but this year feels different. This year there is an energy all through our CrossFit box that has grasped a whole new population. People who said “I could never” are conquering their fears and saying “I can, and watch me kick some a$$ while I do it!” I watch
They often start their workouts scared and timid. They warm up and their doubts begin to shed. You can visibly see their shoulders relax and their posture straighten. As they begin their workout they get that look of surprise on their faces that shows they can’t believe what they got themselves into. As they dig in they start feeling strong again and they grind away and I see looks of determination and perseverance set in. Every now and then they stop for a second and wonder if they can do it all. They stand in front of the barbell or other equipment and stare for a moment while they catch their breath. And then you see the doubt melt away as they give everything they have left and conquer the workout and conquer their fears and doubt. When it’s over they lie down and catch their breath… and then they smile….
That smile tells it all. they can’t believe they just accomplished something so amazing. They can’t believe their own strength and determination. And they know in that moment that they are going to be okay. Life throws us all kinds of obstacles, but it is our job to overcome them. It is our job to persevere. And we can persevere, and we will.
Congratulations to all of you for being your best YOU!!!